Wednesday, October 29, 2008

the girl who rubbed some pink on me


and trasitioned me into dresses, make up and shopping.

It's been a tough week. She left, i had a photography presentation the next day, and a final crit yesterday. I felt like i needed more time to pull myself together before I could continue doing work but i just pushed myself anyway. I know she would. and knowing that we share the same dreams makes me even more determined to reach my goals and to fulfill everything that she will never get to acomplish. Alhamdulillah everything has been fine so far.

Thanks everyone for the messages. I really appreciate it. I'm feeling better now. thanks to your kind words.
I know i shouldnt feel this way but i feel bad whenever I smile or laugh.
is it okay for me to be happy? or is it too soon?

9 comments:

Mamood said...

there's no too soon, nor too late to be happy. And I believe, as hard for you to let her go, and hope she'll be happy in the "other side", she too, hope you be happy here too..

aida salam said...

u don't know me, and i don't know u. but we both know faiz. i found ur comment on faiz's latest blog entry and decided to find out what this is all about. so i blog-hopped to ur page and found this entry. i'm truly sorry for ur loss. i know how hard it can be. i lost my father 2 weeks ago too. and i still feel bad smiling and laughing. u are not alone :)

dee said...

whenever you're smiling or laughing just think of her. think that she is up there looking down upon you laughing along and smiling along with you. don't take it too hard on yourself. believe that whenever you're happy you're delivering those happiness to her as well.i know its hard just take your time...<3

((( ))) said...

she would want you to be happy...

and to do well in your studies...

and to be a better friend to someone else in the future...

:รพ

ellen said...

she would like to see you happy. take your time (:

safuraa razak said...

i guess i feel bad because i dont want her to feel that i have moved on so quickly and forgotten her. but i do understand that it's okay now. thank you all.

im sorry to hear about your dad aida.
i hope you're doing okay now.
i'll keep him in my prayers too.

take care

lia said...

hey saf, i hope ur doing okay and trust me, you'll go through this and be alright in the end. don't feel guilty for anything because at least u still remember her and you're living how she would want you to live :)

safuraa razak said...

hey thanks lia. im doing okay now :)

experimental said...

stay strong aaput...
she's smiling along with you...