some change please?

does anyone have HK$1404 ( USD$ 187.3 ) to spare?

USD$ 728 lying around?

some things are just meant to be looked at.

the girl who rubbed some pink on me

and trasitioned me into dresses, make up and shopping.

It's been a tough week. She left, i had a photography presentation the next day, and a final crit yesterday. I felt like i needed more time to pull myself together before I could continue doing work but i just pushed myself anyway. I know she would. and knowing that we share the same dreams makes me even more determined to reach my goals and to fulfill everything that she will never get to acomplish. Alhamdulillah everything has been fine so far.

Thanks everyone for the messages. I really appreciate it. I'm feeling better now. thanks to your kind words.

I know i shouldnt feel this way but i feel bad whenever I smile or laugh.

is it okay for me to be happy? or is it too soon?

IMAGE design studio final presentation

based on origami tesselation.

RMIT Math, Physics & Astronomics Library

my little girl is all grown up

I know i've been pretty down lately, but i cant resist myself from telling everyone that my girl, Lolly Pop is all grown up now. It started off pretty weird this morning when i heard her screaming thinking that she only wanted attention. When i got to her she started getting in a certain weird position. i have 7 cats at home but they're all male. i've only had 2 female cats in my life but i guess i never realized their habits when they were... is there a more proper word for this?... horny.

i googled a little. rolling on the floor. often rubbing herself onto objects. making weird sounds. then yeap. that's right. it's mating season and Lolly is horny. 

she sniffed my butt. funny or freaky?

you know some moms start realizing that their daughters are growing up by buying them their first bra or pads, in this case, im overwhelmed.

"Queens are not too particular. They will allow mating will various males and this can result in a variety of different fathers for the same litter. Each kitten has only one father and kittens within the same litter may all have different fathers."

I don't know what to feel anymore. I was angry when i found out because i thought it was unfair for her to go when she fought so hard. now i'm confused most of the time. at times i am in denial because i was not there to see her go. when it sinks in, i get really sad and cant help but cry. then id hear the funny things she'd say in my head and i'd laugh. finally, i would feel proud and happy of how strong she was and that she's not suffering anymore. i'd accept and move on for a moment.
Then the cycle starts again.

Waking up in the morning is the hardest part.
it's when i realize that it wasn't a dream.

and at night, when everyone's sleeping and it's quiet outside,
i wonder of how she's doing, and that she's happier where she is now.

I'm glad i experienced the first few years in Melbourne with you. back then we were the two 18 year old fresh out of high school first time on our own arch photography blog freaks lost in melb. you were more passionate about architecture, i just went with the flow. we had our ups and downs but we always managed to get through them. we did talk about death once. how one of us would "handle things" when the other passes on. but that was a long time ago. we didn't take it seriously. i didn't expect it would catch up to one of us so soon.

I miss you smare. im sorry i couldnt be there to say goodbye. i know i promised to get home whenever you need me. i honestly didnt know you were getting worse. i hope you understand. i hope you'd forgive me if i've ever hurt you in any way. here i was telling everyone that you were getting your treatment and you'll be back soon. I was so convinced.
but i understand you had to leave.
rest in peace my-sara,

love
aaput

Al Fatihah

Wan Maisara Amirah Bt Wan Abd Aziz (Sara Aziz) passed away at 9.15pm (19th October) last night.
May Allah s.w.t bless her soul.

Sleep well my friend.

MALINDO futsal tournament 08

boys,

Malam Gemilang 08

sheira hates jijo, jijo loves herself







fave person of the night

while everyone was busy snapping Mahathir's photo, i was busy hiding behind ewa and snapping Hasmah. she's just too cute. somehow reminds me of my late grandma.

malam, malam

malam gemilang was not bad.
i have to admit when i got to the hall i was like "hmm not bad"
then i thought the event was too informal for Mahathir.
but then again if it was too formal we wouldn't get the chance to scream, dance and take pictures.
M and his family were really cool :) down to earth.
fair enough. can't complain.

I know some of you don't agree with him politically, heck I dont even know much about politics,
but as human beings, they're so lovable i felt like hugging them. really.

pictures later yea.

Zamir's surprise,

ira and wena's too

foto

i wish i could find a better reason why i posted this photo but the truth is i just like my hair in here. haha. tho i think i look like my sister's boyfriend.

here's something to cheer you up

okay, im in love with a girl.


im still shaking my ass because of this.
hehe

Thank You for your time

i just wrote a whole paragraph complaining about how much i need a new handbag because of bla bla bla but that's such a waste of space in my blog cause whats the point of whining here when i can just move my ass and buy myself a freaking awesome leather one that can last me til i can pass it to my children and they can pass to theirs. lol maybe not that long. okay nvm, it's not important.

What i really wanna talk about is how i met Tun Mahathir today. I wrote a whole paragraph on that too. I think it would've been a better subject than the handbag but im not much of a writer (THIS IS WHY IT'S GOOD TO READ) and im afraid ill just end up sounding silly.

so yeah, you guys just wasted 2 minutes reading nothing.

there's a reason why I usually just post photos and videos.
(ill upload some photos later, c ya!)

e-wish

today is my brother's birthday but i dont have credit to sms him,
i swear i remembered it since yesterday,
so if you're reading this
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABANG
eat lots of cake and continue investing in that tummy of yours.
oh yeah, i can wish him on facebook. duh.

and my sister turned 25 last month and i realized i didnt wish her here so to be fair

here's her picture!

amy can wait for her turn. hehe

get dizzy

certain time of the day

alleys, coffee & dvds

Hari Raya Ketiga

bye bye Shiv

at least you're not here to kill me for uploading this picture. hahaha love!

Hari Raya

it started off pretty bad, being really late for Malaysia hall and not being able to sembahyang raya.
my handbag's chain broke on the way, by the time we reached there my sister and most of the people i knew had already left. it was nice to see some people, but the moment was just gone.
at one point i even thought of giving up raya and going home to do my design.

but im glad i didnt cause everything turned out well after that :)
thanks to amy for kinda pujuking me. (i think my merajuk habits are getting worse now)
and my mom who "layaned" me wining about how bad my raya started.


photo time was fun, amy's rendang was good, i got to eat zarif's cheesecake, auntie abda's meatballs, noone noticed i wore last year's baju raya, chove cha cho chum ma choo chove.... etc etc




it's shiv's and sally's first raya in melbourne.

lolly and mika's first ever. comel kan?

oh yeah, my phone died the whole day so i couldnt really sms or wish anyone...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA
and i noticed i've been quite a bitch lately. how i'd be moody because of the dumbest and littlest things, so yea yea,
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

pffftt. janganla annoy orang lagi.
im annoyed with myself now.